Frustrated.

Bonjour,
Life goes on.Of course it will unless for death peoples.Whole week was sucks except for spent about two days and 3 nights with my girl bestfren,Syibba.

It's not that I dont love my job and some peoples said that I'm being so sarcastic when I said "I love my job" but actually I am.No words can express my feeling right now because I'm still confused with my job scope and as well as treated like ...sheets.. no need to mention it.

Tee hee..the surrounding was not so good but as I said I love my job,but Im dead tired.Tired for doing all nonsenses,tired for hearing to the eagles.

Later,do some check up for MVSM,again.I should be paid for my extra job.Again,tee hee..
Good coz someone on leave today and Im free.Yibba..aggreee..

I got back headphone..anyway.. my beloved headphone which was my birthday present when I was 13.I cannot life with it...

More laters..I can feel that this blog is dying....

Merci.

the day

Boom De Ya Da

Bonjour,


I love the mountains
I love the clear blue skies
I love big bridges
I love when great whites fly
I love the whole world
And all its sights and sounds
Boom-dee-ah-da, boom-dee-ah-da
Boom-dee-ah-da, boom-dee-ah-da
I love the oceans
I love real dirty things
I love to go fast
I love Egyptian kings
I love the whole world
And all its craziness
Boom-dee-ah-da, boom-dee-ah-da
Boom-dee-ah-da, boom-dee-ah-da
I love tornadoes
I love arachnids
I love hot magma
I love the giant squids
I love the whole world
It's such a brilliant place
Boom-dee-ah-da, boom-dee-ah-da
Boom-dee-ah-da, boom-dee-ah-da
Boom-dee-ah-da, boom-dee-ah-da
Boom-dee-ah-da, boom-dee-ah-da
Boom-dee-ah-da, boom-dee-ah-da



This song makes me feel so good and happy

Merci.

Separated.

Bonjour,

This year is a heart breaking year.So listen to the song.



If love was a bird then we wouldn't have wings
If love was a sky we'd be blue
If love was a choir you and I could never sing
Cuz love isn't for me and you
If love was an Oscar you and I could never win
Cuz we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible then we are lost in sin
Cuz it's not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way, and I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cuz we're better off separated

If love was a fire then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light then we're lost in the dark
Left for no-one to hold
If love was a sport we're not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean then we are just a stream
Cuz love isn't for me and you

Why don't you go your way, and I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cuz we're better off separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know about you I can't deny
Can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this winding road we lost the trust
So I walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

Why don't you go your way, and I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cuz we're better off, so much better off
Why don't you go your way, and i'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cuz we're better off, so much better off, so much better off separated

I'm sorry we didn't make it


Merci.

To see what I supposed to see PART 2

Bonjour,
Continue from the previous entry,semalam keluar nak cari curtain kan,so terpaksa off line.Erm,curtain taklah berapa cantik sangat kerana pada mulanya nak jahit sendiri tetapi memikirkan mesin jahit yang belum dibeli,jadi terus beli yang siap.Beli sekali empat,rugi jer.Cukup jer dua sebenarnya,tapi takperlah boleh buat spare kan?

Cakap pasal menjahit ni,aku belajar menjahit masa umur aku 17 tahun lepas SPM.Ayah aku memang suke hantar anak-anak ke kelas-kelas.Tak kisahlah kelas ape janji belajar.So,yang paling best aku masuk kelas menjahit dan memasak then biler nak hang out dengan kawan-kawan atau my ex bf called rumah,aku kene pesan kat maid aku yang cakap aku pergi keluar tapi jangan mentioned semua kelas-kelas tu.Malu siot.Dululah,sekarang tak..sebab sekarang rase sangat berguna untuk diri sendiri.

So,sambungan dari kisah semalam.

semasa lepak kat mamak dengan kawan-kawan aku kami pun berbincang bagaimana mahu menyelesaikan masalah yang ada depan mata.Diluah mati mak,ditelan mati bapak.Susah sangat kami nak luahkan kepada bos ape yang perlu dibuat perubahan demi kebaikan semua orang akan kerja-kerja lebih teratur.Susah tapi kena gak buat supaya rasa tenang.Yang peliknya sepanjang aku kerja sini tak pernah satu kali pun meeting dibuat.Pelik tapi benar.Sebuah syarikat yang besar tetapi langsung tidak teratur.Susah.

Aku bukan apa,sebelum aku meninggalkan organisasi ini aku harap semua yang aku rancangkan menjadi agar pejabat ni senang.Anyway,aku dah dapat kerja lain.Kerja bidang yang amik.Aku memang dah lama nak kerja kat tempat tu sebab buat dokumentari dan aku suka tengok doku tapi tak pernah merasa buat.Tunggu masa nak blah,tapi di mana akan aku cerita nanti kisah aku menjadi seorang job seeker beberapa minggu kebelakangan ini.Aku bukan tak sayang sini tetapi rasa macam tidak ada kepuasan dalam apa yang aku buat.Entah.

Takperlah,aku cuba di tempat lain dulu,manalah tahu rezeki aku lebih di sana dan peluang yang aku idamkan berjaya dicapai.Insyallah.Hidup ni kalau takut dilambung ombak,jangan berumah ditepi pantai.Tapi biar kena pada tempatlah,jangan buat benda yang tak berfaedah pulak.

Itu saja coretan untuk kali ini.More laters.

Merci.

To see what I supposed I see Part 1

Bonjour,
Today,I went to script reading for my latest drama series for Astro Prima Mertua VS Menantu Part 11.I don know what I be invited sebab aku langsung tak terlibat dalam this part 2 drama.But my bosses asked me so,I have to do it lah kan.

Seperti biasa,aku kesana bersama my best kolik and also as well as my bestfren.Oh,tidak kali ni bertiga,iaitu my new mates also good fren of mine.Dia sebenarnya nak ditrain jadi next in house PM,I know she can do it coz in previous company she was someone yg sangat bagus sebagai seorang leader.She is firm,good in talk and make peoples will listen to anything that she wanna say.I'm really proud of her.But this one thing yang buatkan aku tertekan ialah ada seorang hamba Allah yang merupakan freelancer yg bertugas sebagai PM bagaikan acuh tak acuh melayan my kolik ni oleh kerana dia akan jadi perantis ala-ala the Apprentice lah cuma bukan oleh Donald Trump ok?Then she be treated like rubbish biler my bosses said to the current PM that that her will be location manager.Inilah orang Melayu berdengki tak bertempat sangat-sangat dan mukanya sangat ketara okay?He cannot cover his face and I was like OMG,what happened to this industry?

So I'm so frustrated dengan dia ok..and my fren as usual will chilling herself with her coffee.She so into coffee. I knew her,so I lepas tu I treat her with my pasta.She loves pasta as I do.Love to see her smiles.I loves all my friends,so I treats them with all my best.

Back to the office kami merancang beberapa plans untuk memberitahu bos untuk improve certain parts of this company untuk kebaikan semua ok?Not for us,but for the bosses.I dont want to be recognized as Melayu yang "melayu".Get what I mean?

More laters,nak bersiap cari curtain.

Merci.

You break my heart!

Bonjour,

I do not know how start this entry.But the only thing I can say it's hard to find someone who really can be trusted and loyal to you as well.It's hard.Im the type what others would say a jolly girl but of course I have a feeling coz I'm a human beings.

It's not to say I'm really wanna turn back times but I can say yes,I hope can!It's really hurt you when you really trust someone then they betrayed it.I dont know, I will get really angry if I find out that fella lying to me,and I cant stand it.When I did say to that fella,that you are desperate that fella will say something like "Where got lah",but is that fella realized she/he is.The aswer is yes,lick his spit own.One side that fella can say dont like this person then on the other hand can ....I dont know how to put this bullshits are all about.That fella is not for me.Yurk,I dont know how to say that,she/he can pretending all the times.WTF,it's real man.They suit each other,seriously.Good "bagai pinang dibelah-belah".

OMG,for now onwards I just sticks with what I have,my friends.Thanks God I really have good friends who always there when I need them.

But it's okay,I'm fine now,its a good experience for me is not to trust peoples easily.



Merci.

Weekly choice!

Bonjour,

Watch tis video and you will find this song is very nice.I watched it twice.This song is in the Film titled Masam-masam Manis.A story about this one couple who actually rented in the same lodging but they were arguing everyday for some simple reasons.The funny thing was they havent see each other.Then falled in love and funny parts when they got to know that they actually neighbour who hate each other.Eventhough it's keok,but still can watch it.Enjoy friends.



Merci.

Facts about me (PART 1)

Bonjour,

I've been tagged with one of my friends to share facts about myself.I dont' realized everything I did,I means habits but I been told by all my friends and it's always the same points.

1)Whenever I think of something,I will play with my hair,it was since I was in primary school.

2)I loves cats but accidently I had killed one little kitten coz it was so so cute..I cekik it..hehehe..I was 15 years old that time.

3)My friends have to really be patient with me coz I'm moody if something occur in the morning will make my whole day ruin

4)I am clown to my friends,I will easily say something whatever I want,and they will laugh.I dont know for what reasons but I'm happy if they re happy.

5)Most of my friends are guys,majority and only fews girls,I dont know why but I prefer guys,easy to handle and communicate.

6)Sleeping is my hobby.I can sleep for whole day until me myself wake up.

7)I dont know how to ride a bike.Hehehe..

8)I have a lot of lot shoes collection but I only wears few.

9)I am very particular bout my things,that why if someone borrow my shirt let say,I will just give that person that shirt,I dont like to share.I dont know why,but all my siblings have same attitudes as mine.

10)I like to drink plain water if I dont do so,my lips will get dry and for sure tommorow I will get ulser and my lips looked like I'm wearing red color lipstick.

11)All my friends said they were menyampah at me at the first looked,lantaklah!hehehe..

12)My frens noticed I like to do "muncung".

13)I dont like to eat rice,but I love breads..

More laters,

Sleepy,

Merci.

Bisakah.

My song choice of the week.I dont know why,I watched this for the first time at MTV during raya,I asked my cousin the title of this song,sing by Siti Nurhaliza,auww, and it keep remains in my mind.

I love the lyric.Enjoy friends,enjoy the wordings.

Wan Kunjit

Bonjour,
Today is one of my best friend birthday,Ridzuwan.I used to call him Wan Kunjit.I dont know kunjit stand for what but I've fun when I called him with the nick.

I knew him from also my bestfren,Syahlan kunini,two years ago.Before this he're working for this one factory as HR staffs,then my lan kunini introduced to him to Sinar Harian,now he became part of Sinar's journalist.He's good in writing.

He likes to cook,and I love his cooking,especially his fried rice,chicken chop,oh my goodness,yummy!!!

He's supposed to be older than me one year,why I said it supposed?It's because in his identity card is written he was born in 1985,that means two years younger than me.It happened when he renew his IC and the person in charged put it as 1985.How it supposed to be?*sigh*

Advantages:peoples will treat him as "adik",yurk,not adik-adik okay,He have two years extras for maybe to correct what he done wronged,for me so many advantages he can get.hehehe..

Disadvantages:Maybe when we teased you,you yourself uncomfortable with it.

But one thing I know,I miss you,not only you but all of "us".You get what I mean?Yes,really.



That's him!My sammy velu!

Happy Birthday Wan,may you achieve all your dreams,I love you and hopefully our friendship will last forever,muah muah muah.

p/s:eventhough baru break off,it's okay beb,you have us..hehehe..





Merci!

Ini Saatnya.

Bonjour,
Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin kepada semua kawan-kawan yang pernah mengenali diri aku ini terutama kepada sahabat handai dan teman-teman rapat yang banyak bersabar dengan karenah dan sikap aku.Sesungguhnya aku hanya manusia biasa yang cuba mencari kesempurnaan dalam hidup.

Habis soal raya kini soal kerja menjelang pulak.Sepanjang raya aku telah membaca beberapa buah buku penulisan skrip dan seni layar untuk menambahkan pengetahuan di dada.Tambahan pula proses pembelajaran itu takkan pernah selesai.

Sepanjang tempoh raya yang aku raikan seperti biasa secara sederhana dan ala kadar,tiada istilah baju raya bagi aku dalam beberapa tahun kebelakangan ini kerana aku kerana baju kurung atau baju tradisional yang ada pun tidak terpakai jadi buat apa membazir.Raya tahun ini aku mengenakan konsep "mix & match" senang,baju kurung hitam tak pernah di pakai di pakai bersama kain batik hitam dan selendang menutupi kepala aku ni tanda hormat pada sanak saudara dan opah aku.Raya tetap meriah meskipun tok aku baru meninggal,istilah yang pergi tetap pergi diguna pakai oleh ayah aku untuk meredakan kepiluan di jiwa.Harus dicontohi,kena kuat,katanya.

Hari pertama aku masuk kerja banyak proposal yang aku harus siapkan kerana masa takkan menunggu kita,aku kena lebih fokus demi untuk berjaya dan mengejar impian aku.Aku bermula,dengan sebuah cerita berkenaan seorang wanita malang yang menjadi mangsa rogol ayah dan abang kandungnya sejak dari usia 12 tahun lagi.Cerita nampak simple namun aku cuba garapkan dengan lebih menarik agar pihak tv meluluskan proposal ini.Beberapa lagi nota yang aku buat ketika raya,semua lebih bersifat kemanusiaan agar selain dari unsur percintaan aku dapat terapkan elemen betapa pentingnya kita manusia mempunyai sikap "kemanusiaan".Mungkin ada yang berpendapat,manusia,haruslah ada sifat kemanusiaan,tapi mereka salah,manusia tidak semuannya berperikemanusiaan,jika tidak masakan suratkhabar penuh dengan pelbagai kes yang mengerikan.

"cinta",too overused,naik muak dengar perkataan cinta,aku lebih suka tajuk-tajuk seperti contohnya "kala bulan mengambang,renjis" pendek,padat dan banyak maksudnya.Contoh Inai di malam pengantin.Ramai yang bertanya apakah maksudnya,senang bagi aku iaitu inai tidak kekal lama,manakala malam pengantin adalah permulaan kebahagiaan alam berumah tangga,namun ia seperti inai tidak kekal merahnya.

Tajuk-tajuk proposal yang akan datang ini akan aku pastikan tiada lagi perkataan cinta tapi aku kena ikut juga memandangkan proposal ini dipilih oleh pihak tv,mereka pun ada kehendak mereka sendiri.

Aku kini ingin meluaskan lagi hasil tulisan aku ke syarikat luar,cuma kini aku sedang belajar caranya,agar aku tahu selok-belok perniagaan ini.Ini juga kategori perniaagaan,Insyaalah,buat setakat ini,aku cuba apa yang mampu aku laksanakan dulu.Esok lusa baru yang lain,jangan tamak,kerana yang tamak selalu rugi,tetapi biarlah bersikap berlumba-lumba agar kejayaaan yang sepatutnya milik kita tetap milik kita.

Aku tidak pernah mentakrifkan soal kejayaan sebagai "kaya atau punyai segala-segalanya" namun lebih kepada "self satisfaction",apabila kita mampu buat apa yang kita mahukan dan kita kecapi ia,kejayaan bagi aku.Tidak semestinya untuk ditunjuk-tunjuk atau bermegah-megah dengannya.Sama dengan penulisan skrip,anugerah tidak bermakna langsung bagi aku,jika menang bonus bagi aku,selebihnya lebih bersikap dakwah yang ingin aku sampaikan dalam setiap skrip,biar punyai objektif yang disasar agar ia bukan cerita semata-mata.

Tidak pandai belajar kata abahku,ini yang aku sedang lakukan.Aku tak yakin dengan diri aku pada mulanya tapi aku belajar dan akan terus belajar supaya kejayaan berada di sisiku.Kejayaan?Apa maknanya kepadaku?Besar ertinya.

Dalam proses pembelajaran yang Maha Hebat ini aku melalui pelbagai ujian yang tidak diterima akal,namun kejayaan bagi aku jika aku berjaya melaluinya.Tidak sama ketika belajar di universiti,benarlah kata orang,alam bekerja kena kuat.Aku cuba untuk kuat!

Balik kepada topik pekerjaan aku,proposal akan ku serahkan hujung minggu ini,harap-harap ada yang diterima.Insyallah.Sama juga seperti penulis skrip yang lain,teruskan menulis,aku mendoakan kejayaan kalian semua,harap di samping berkarya jangan lupa selitkan sepatah dua nasihat yang berguna.Bukan hanya untuk audien tetapi bangsa kita.

Harapkan semua fokus kepada kerja masing-masing,tidak lama lagi tahun 2009 akan menjelma,segerakan matlamat yang lama,agar hidup semakin sempurna,kita pun semakin dewasa,Insyallah di harapkan semua menerima Rahmat dariNya.

Selepas semua selesai akan aku berkongsi mengenai semua proposal yang aku hantar nanti.Insyallah!

Merci.